I recently heard someone describe having a baby as your heart living outside of your body. I would say that captures it perfectly.
Becoming a Mom has made me feel stronger. Where I once would have worried about myself, I now find my energy devoted to protecting my baby, with trust that I will be fine. For so many years I worried I would not be strong enough to be a mother, but now I know I am. Thinking this might never happen for me has made it that much more special. I am also extraordinarily lucky to have great support and a baby who continues to be a good sleeper.
Reflecting on it, my lack of confidence, coupled with an understanding of my strengths and weaknesses, actually has helped me to establish the support I need to thrive in my new role. I have accepted help with open arms instead of trying to do it all myself.
I know many sensitive souls who also feel they might not be cut out for parenting. I can certainly relate to that, but I do know that sensitive people are some of the most loving, compassionate, sweet, generous people, and those are qualities that make wonderful parents.
I don’t want to give the idea that this has been easy. Mommy brain is real! My memory is half of what it normally is. In some ways it’s frustrating but in other ways it’s a relief. Less overthinking. I also find it hard to get anything done outside of caring for my baby and my basic needs. As a highly sensitive person, multitasking doesn’t feel good to me and staring at my computer trying to work while my baby is watching me also doesn’t feel good, so my work time has been limited.
As I start to refocus on my work, I have many ideas, but it doesn't feel like the right time to make any lasting plans just yet. I tend to have a good sense of when the timing is right for something and will continue to follow my inner guidance on this. My main focus for now is my baby and I will continue to see as I go, taking it one day at a time.
I hope you will join me for my livestream classes this month (Restorative on 9/3 and Gentle on 9/17) and stay tuned for more!
With love and sensitivity,
Christie
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